July 13, 2010
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irony.
lately.. religion has been really IN MY FACE.
i have 3 religious books lined up for me to (attempt to) read and a lot of hopelessness coming into my life.
well.
ironically, to me.. religion is the tempting apple in the garden of eden.
the void that is built with every second of acknowledging that ill never know why we're here.. would easily be filled with religion.
coping with pain/suffering/loss would be POSSIBLE with religion.
but i dont want to cheat.
i dont want to just give into what i believe our smart human race has built to inspire a meaningful and civilized society.
firstly, i can see the benefits of living a respectable life without fearing a god, so i did not need a god there.
secondly, i do not need god to love, because i had parents who loved me when i was young.
i have lost my grandfather.. but i have decided to talk to him instead of god.
so yeah, back to cheating. i dont want to just BELIEVE in something so i can forcefully answer a question i dont think i can ever know.
Comments (2)
Does that mean that those of us who believe in God are cheating and have a need to fill holes? or that our parents didn't love us enough?
(FYI, I'm not offended, just trying to make sense of your logic, but this is Xanga, so logic is optional :] )
It's ok if I pray for you right?
@da_hwang - in my eyes, my rules only apply to me. i am pretty sure that the reason why i dont look for god RIGHT NOW, is because, to me, it would be cheating to fill that hole. and if someone was to wonder how i could LOVE without god, i'd tell em i was loved and therefore i know how to love.
it does not apply to anyone else... considering i'd never really know for sure anyway.
of course it's ok for you to pray for me. hehehe. i'd be thankful that you think of me.
but i guess for me.. the above logic is how i think about religion.. or how i think it applies to me.
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