in my search for a job and landing interviews with potential employers, ive interviewed for a dream job. now im competing against another candidate for the position (said the interviewer in a follow up phone conversation). this other candidate is currently interviewing for the position and the organization will contact me in about two weeks, whether i get the job or not. i am TRYING to wait patiently for the organization's decision.

through this waiting process im going through a series of negative and competitive feelings. both of which im biased against.

anger, defeat, depression, failure, and hopelessness in anticipation of rejection.
even though there are moments of positive feelings, like hope, i am fearful of how harder the fall will be if i don't get the job.

i've also wished ill against this unknown competitor.

this was actually the peak of the need for meditation.

i am finally at a cooperative state of mind, though im still very anxious to hear the result. ive done my best and external forces will do the rest. may the best candidate land the job. i trust the organization will choose what is best for them.