i was abosolutely DRIVEN to go to chikalicious today.

and to no surpise at all.. i was taken to a heaven with the most delicious dessert.

she laid out a nicely cut parchment paper.. bunched a couple of fresh halved figs in the middle.
sprinkled some cinnamon.. and some miscellaneous spices on top with a lil sugar.
she took one side of the parchment paper and wrapped the figs and shut it with a nice fold.

she baked it for awhile.. and it came out lookin like a paper pie. o.O

and then...

with a scissor, she cut open the top..

i believe, at that moment, i saw the most exquisite steam i've ever seen in my life..

sigh.

she then gently laid a scoop of port wine icecream on the side to make my life complete.

1. i HATE how xanga keeps asking me to change my fukkin password everytime i log in. even after i changed it. jesus. it's so annoying.

2. kanye west album is goddam hot. he may be one cocky ass bastard, but he sure has the skills to back it up with. i dont really like cocky bastards myself, but i dont KNOW him like that, so it doesnt really affect me. his songs are good.

3. the concert for onerepublic in the canal room.. was the best 12 dollars i spent in my life. they are awesome performers.. and pretty dam good music. I got to talk to zach, the guitarist, and shook his hand. (most of the fans were hugging and stuff.. but i guess it was instinct from all the hand shaking i do at work.) i said, "nice to meet you." when we didnt even exchange names. lol. i guess it only works when it's a performer.

*my phone's camera aint so shabby, eh?

4. bank of america is pretty crappy. PERIOD. heard and experienced way too many issues with them.

sometimes, i live on a tide.
riding through minutes.. hours..

here and there, i'll ask why.
why? why? why? honestly.. shut up.

most of the time, i live on a stand still.
time may continue, so?

stuck in traffic, on my own will.
i refuse to change. honestly.. shut up.

"important" things are empty.
my values are not enough.

all i want, will leave me hungry.
live my way, i end up below.

nothing is right..
and my right ends to nothing.

eunjer.

i was driving up to troy.. listening to 100.7 WHUD. (a Light FM type of radio station)

all of a sudden.. i wanted to request a song.. so i called them up.
i talked to the host a lil bit..
ofcourse.. i said things that dont make sense.. like:

her: what are you up to?
me: oh.. just driving on the 87 highway. (-.-)

anyway. so my first request was michelle branch - goodbye to you..
and she didnt have it.. told me how much she liked the song though.. even sang me a lil snippet. (-.-)
and then when she asked me for another one.. i sorta blanked out..
asked for erasure... but she didnt have any of that either.

then i thought of five for fighting - superman.

and it made the list~~

i was waiting for my song to come on... for about an hour.. and the radio became staticy..
then i started getting real antsy and irritated.. so i called up yuta.

basically, i told him to go whud.com to stream the radio and put his phone in front of the speaker, so i could listen to it. (he was busy hosting a bbq at the time)

so...

another 45 minutes later, i listened to my "edited" conversation with her on the radio and then my song came out.

one part:

her: what song would you like to hear?
me: five for fighting, superman....  I LOVE THIS SONG!!  (those two phrases were spoken at different moments.. and it seemed TOTALLY dorky when she just put them together like that.)

anyway. i havent requested a song on the radio since.. middle school.

it was nice.

i finally did it..
finally made a cake from scratch. absolutely NO CAKE MIXES in site.
i even made some tweaks in the recipe.. cuz i'm smart like that. (since i have soo much exeperience in not baking cakes!)

anyway. i wanted to bake it in yuta's house since my oven is either 1. really dirty or 2. broken.
and it happened to be james' birthday.. so TWO BIRDS with ONE STONE!

bought all the ingredients for the cake... and it totaled 24 dolla
billas. i'm thinking... DAAAAAAAAAM. that's the price of a mini cake in
the bakery.
ofcourse.. i have lots of leftover ingredients for future cakes as well.
it's really amazing really.. baking for yourself.

anyway. it sure didnt come out looking like the pictures in my previous pictures.
the first taste of the cake was also a bit too sweet.

but i learned.. cakes are the best after one night of being fridged.
it's just the way it is. it was PERFECT the next day. gosh.

waitin for my cake to cool:

VOILA!

the three brothers: (in their costume)

the birthday guy:

me and my baby:

sigh.... it was so beautiful.... AND MANY MORE TO COME!!

here's my red velvet for ya:

it's beautiful really...

i have another obsession.

however, this one is a bit.. outrageous because.. i've never had it before and yet i'm obsessed with it. it doesnt make any sense.. it's like that unreasonable crush you have on somebody that you've never talked to. which usually only happens to highschoolers, because ur expected to know better when you're older. you think about them every minute.. daydream about them being the "perfect one"..

i'm like this with this cake.  i've been thinking about it ALL day.. for about 2 days now.

well.. i always said.. to get rid of these types of obsessions.. is by experiencing it.  u build your expectations SO HIGH that it's almost guaranteed to dissapoint and u'll get over it.

the first time i was introduced to red velvet cake was from the movie Steel Magnolias.  when i wiki'ed red velvet cake, it actually notes that it comes out in Steel Magnolias:

"A recent resurgence in the popularity of this cake is partly attributed to the 1989 film Steel Magnolias in which the groom's cake (another southern tradition) is a red velvet cake made in the shape of an armadillo."

i am definitely one of the victims of that resurgence.

mmm... i need to bake a red velvet cake....

Currently listening to: one republic - apologize

www.myspace.com/onerepublic

u can't write this stuff:

watched bourne ultimatum with yuta last night..
talk about a good action movie.
yuta hadnt watched the first two movies.. but i told him it'll be okay.. cuz i dont remember the first two movies that well anyway.

turns out, they do a real good job in filling you in on what's been goin on and honestly.. we both decided that the gist of the movie is relatively simple.

it's about a REALLY FUGGIN GOOD ASSASIN.. that happens to be emo.

na mean?

anyway. went to chikalicious again.
i read their "meet the management" site..
i realized the black guy was Don Tillman.. and Chika was most likely his wife. Chika Tillman.
yuta and i both agreed they really didnt look like.. nor act like a couple.
so maybe i thought.. she might be Don's sister-in-law?
or... an adopted sister?

lol.

either way.. Don's sure lucky to have family that makes AMAZING desserts.

peace.

it's great that i have no bowel issues.
but seriously..

it's bothersome when i have to go while i'm eating.
it happens quite often. usually breakfast or dinner.

and then.. i have to come back to eat again.

very awkward.

i realize, we're so biased when disgusted at poop.
i can poop and wipe and then go back to eating with no problem.
and yet.. if i caught a site of anyone else's poop, i probably wont eat for the rest of the night.

or maybe atleast an hour later.

i guess that goes with boogers too.

while work kept me busy... tired... and always craving for a beer, i realized my nails were too long.. and my hair was actually noticeably growing.

the last three things were funny because..

-i drank a beer.. and a glass of wine on friday.. and then had to puke it out in an hour.
i mean.. regardless, i had a good time while it was still inside.

-i frantically looked for a nail that flinged off after i cut it..
and like all tiny little things that fall to the ground mistakenly..
it mysteriously disappeared and it will soon turn up in the most unfavorable situation.
i cant wait.

-my hair.. there is actually nothing funny about my hair given that half of it is still burnt. i dont care that nobody can tell that it's burned. I KNOW IT'S BURNT goddam it.

ugh.