dear christina.

just a couple of things..

1. dont smoke those dam cigarettes. you're cool without them.
2. older boys... are not more mature.
3. dont sneak out at night and roam the streets. it's just not THAT safe.
4. next time that guy calls out to look at him jerkin off in his car.. throw a rock at his face and call the police.
5. dont be such a bitch to your parents. u kno you love them and they love you.
6. grow out your eyebrows. it really looks non existent.
7. get edumacated about sex.
8. dont think about throwing up to lose weight.. EXERCISE! lol.
9. ur not that fat anyway. stop obsessing.
10. enjoy your youth. ur going to get older without a choice. no need to rush the process.

   

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my father got me a frank muller watch.

oh yeah.. a fake frank muller watch. regardless, it was a very nice looking watch.
i've never heard of frank muller.. so i figured nobody else would know what it is.
research told me a real frank muller (with my design) would be somewhere around $10,000.

so anyway, here i am.. wearing this watch..
nobody ever asked me bout it.. doopty doo.

one day.. someone asked me... "hey.. is that a high-end watch?"

me: "oh.. it's a fake."

in my head: dam.. i guess people know frank muller watches.

me: "maybe i should stop wearing it, cuz i dont want people to think i wear $10,000 watches.. or fake $10,000 watches."

some other person: "i'll buy it."

me: "you want people to think you buy $10,000 watches?"

some other person: "yeah."

.
.
.

me: "okay."

gave me $20 bux and it was SOLD.

now.. i gotta tell my dad.

mm. happy 2008.

days, weeks, months.. may be repeats.. but we never had a 2008.. till now. so.. happy fresh new year!

anyway. i've been out and about.. saying goodbye.. doing some work.. being a little sick.. and some other junk.

havent written since sometime before christmas so i got a crapload of pictures that i'm going to show.
everyone loves my pictures.

let me correct that.. everyone loves my pictures compared to my jibbuh jabbah.

some more jibbuh jabbah before pictures:

i was typing 2008 all over the place at work by mistake in 2007.. and i scolded myself for being stupid.

now that i fixed it.. it's 2008.. i keep typing 2007.

o.O

i was wishing one of my aunts a happie new year and she mentioned how her
daughter was spending quite a lot of time with her boyfriend. (her
senior in highschool daughter).

she said... "she spends so much time with him... i dont know what to do.. and i can't seem to say anything about it."

and then my teenage life and having a boyfriend came to my mind.. and i said..

"yeah.. you cant really say anything."

they just wont understand.

having a daughter scares me. but then i see all these women in the world and think... wow. a lot of them come out okay.

whatever.

i did tell her that i'll get together with her and ask about her relationship and what not.

angie left. it's weird to return back to my normal life. i dont know
where to pick up all the stuff i pushed aside.. and some parts of me
dont want to pick it back up i guess.

i know she missed korea and of course, missed her boyfriend.. so i know
she had a BLAST with me.. but im sure she's glad to be back home.
hehehe.

hope she has a wonderful birthday as well.

mm.. i was randomly thinking about the past year's events and i remembered applying for my tax return.
and for the death of me.. i couldnt remember what i did with the return.. hell, i couldnt even remember if i received it.

so, i checked through my account and remembered where the return went. it went in my mouth.

mm.. so what does that mean? it means cheers to losing your mind and then tracking back to find it again.

here are my pictures~

christmas at yuta's bro's place:

i know i look like i'm the one with the most presents. well. i just uploaded a lot of "me" pics.

hot pot dinner. SCORE!

rockefeller center: 

due to unexpected circumstances, at the hospital for new years eve with yuta's family:

puzzles in the waiting room and james blowing kisses:

we are robots. (and i am doing my how-to-be-really-good-looking face.)

goodbye.

unfitting to the title of this entry... i will not bitch and moan.

here's a crap load of what i've been doing lately.. (other than bitchin and moanin)

captured fall before all the leaves fell off:

met up with jayster and columbus circle: (and decided to do the cheesiest smile EVER.)

wished my auntie a happie bursday:

played with my new camera with angie:

saw some middle school friends:

wished jackson and ken yeh a happie burthday:

played a little more with the camera:

captured a sunrise in sterling, virginia:

amazed myself at how clean washinton, dc union station was:

went to troy to see my sweetheart:

noticed how badly i needed a closet:

chilled in flushing to eat some wonderful hot pot buffet:

how to be ugly:

witnessed wenjing fall in love with yogurt soju:

drank some wine in the afternoon.. (recommended by chikalicious)

met up with joe, susan, danny, david and eugene for some reunioning:

this is what happens when you raise your eyebrows during a picture:

ready for some steak:

now.. tell me.. what's more to life.. than some good times?

and more to come.

when i look at myself in the mirror.. im pretty sure of who i am..
what i've become.. how i did.. and how i'll do.

sometimes. an uncertainty may be is how others think of me. how others think i did.. and how others think i will do.

but honestly, there's not enough minutes in the day for me to waste time on things i'll never be sure of. (like many things in life that i'm tempted to waste my time thinking about.)

come to think of it... if i had one wish.. i wish i could know myself from another person's point of view. (here i go again.)

my religion, basically, is me. it's how i see everything. everything.. in the eyes of eunjoo.

my religion evolves.. it changes.. just like most religions. but as i grow up.. it's becoming a fight.

when i come across undeserved reactions and feelings that i act and feel, most times it naturally becomes excluded from my life. but sometimes.. my conditioning has rooted so deep, despite my logical disagreement, i act and feel what i hate myself doing.

these days.. it feels like in order for me to be happy... i have to fight and overcome a lot of bullshit that i was taught to feel by society's life.

i have to.. win.

you know you're off your equilibrium when you mess up your shower routine.. twice.

AND.

my showers are only 10 minutes long.

not too much space for error.

-_-;;

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i was sitting in the hotel room thinking, "i'm in the middle of nowhere", and then found out that the median house cost was higher here than in leonia, new jersey.

that slapped me in the face. sheesh.

anyway.. there's not much around the hotel i'm staying at.. except this huge ass mall that's relatively empty every night. (lookin at the parking lot.)
i actually contemplated doing some xmas shopping there.. but.. i'm still just contemplating so far.

jane and jesse drove an hour from washington DC to see me and i was so happy to see janey.
i brought two cameras from jersey and realized i forgot to bring it out i went out to dinner with them.

another slap in the face. sheesh.

i get free breakfast and free lunch during my stay here..
and i'm quite happy with that.

i suppose that's a no-go for losing the thanksgiving weight.

which reminds me.. there's a pool and gym in the hotel..
but i have neither a swim suit nor gym clothes to work out in.

that's a double no-go.

:[

it's cliche to think time goes fast..
oh wow.. it's already the end of 2007...
blah blah blah.

lately, i've experienced a totally new type of time speed.

things come up... people to meet.. places to go.. training to take.. things to study for..
and before i get to really think about it.. i find myself already doing it.

it's like.. my life is going faster than my own conscious.

i dunno if anyone understands... but it's new to me.

usually, i have some sort of mind preparation to what i'm going to be doing next..
but there is no time to do that now.. i'm busy being surprised at already being in the next step.. while moving on to the next.

very.. weird.

either way, i hope it doesnt last. it would be quite a shock to think this will be the rest of my life.

anyway.. bak to catching up.

i was looking through facebook for old friends from elementary school...
and with much excitement, i added a friend that i used to play with all the time.

i'd go over her house to sleep over... watch her play with her cat..
curse at it when it farted silently and walked away...
danced the night away during our sleep overs..

feedback told me she added me as a friend... so right away, i wrote on her wall:
"do you remember meee??? christina you???"

waited..
waited..

no reply.

others would say... "maybe she's busy.. it happens to me.. i wanna write too, but i just dont get a chance.. blah blah."

since then, she's uploaded pictures, tagged herself in pictures, sent people super wall pictures..

then i noticed that my post was deleted..

i suppose not everyone feels the same way as you do...

T.T

i wish maybe she didnt add me as a friend.. this has dampened my appreciation for facebook..

writing about this is a bit silly.. but ANYWAY.

here are some thanksgiving pictures:

sandy's turkeydurkey..

mashed from scratch with bacon bits:

sandy's mom and her baby cousin:

babies take all the attention:

juday and angie: